Suicidal and alcoholic mother, cocaine, disgust, guilt: Demi Moore's secret calendar is shocking
Demi Moore's diary describes in detail the dark childhood years and the battles with the suicidal mother.
The recently discovered calendar is a raw and deep personal look at the hectic upbringing of Hollywood star.
The diary was found thrown into a warehouse that once belonged to her ex -husband, Bruce Willis.
In this, Demi Moore records shocking family secrets, refers to her battles with addiction and traumatic experiences that have ever been pushed.
Moore revealed in the diary, which excerpts published by the Daily Mail, that it was initially called Elizabeth Fith Harmon, but her mother changed her name after leaving her biological father a few weeks before she was born.
Moore has learned the truth at the age of 14 when she found a marriage certificate since February 1963, though she was born in 1962.
The confrontation with her mother has led to revelations about her biological father and explains her difficult childhood.
Demi Moore always grew up with a suitcase in her hand as her family had financial problems and her mother was alcoholic.
In a shocking entry, Moore narrated an incident where she was forced to prevent an attempt at her mother's suicide.
« I got up and went to see what was going on, » he writes. « My mom was trying to swallow a whole bottle of barbiturates. My dad was trying to stop her, but two hands were not enough. When she saw me, she told me, 'I'll keep her down and I want to take her out of the mouth'.
Demi Moore noted that she was « the first (her) time to save her mother from suicide. »
Demi Moore in her 14s
Her father, Danny Gaines, died shortly afterwards. Gates committed suicide in 1980, while her mother, Virginia Gaines, continued to drink and return from bar to bar, carrying Moore with her.
« At bars, my mother loved to be told that she looked too young to be my mom, » she writes. « I was a fourteen -year -old girl who looked like 25. They almost always served me. »
What initially looked fun quickly turned into something really alarming.
« All this seemed very fun until they started to put me out of the bars because she was very drunk and aggressive. It was disgusting, « he added.
In her book, Demi Moore had revealed something she did not write in her diary.
Her mother gave her a man for $ 400. He raped her.
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Alcohol was a part of Moore's life from an incredibly young age. « Seeing adult drunk and alcoholics was nothing unusual in my life. I'm not sure how old I was when I realized that what was normal was not, but I learned it in the toughest way, ”Moore writes.
Moore notes that she drank her first sip beer at the age of just three. She was on a family trip when a aunt gave her to Moore and a cousin of six beers and a quantity of marijuana, though she was nine and ten.
« I just thought I was so cute and, oh, so big, » he wrote. The use of substances did not stop there.
Her teens was worse. The teenage girl was gone, she was the girl of the party, and after moving to Redondo Beach, California, she became a part of a group of drinks and drugs addicted.
« This was my new character. A smoker, alcoholic, dependent, « he admitted.
Moore and her girlfriends drank what they found « for the sole purpose of drilling as much as possible » she writes.
« We didn't care what it was, as long as we became Liarda. I made friends in the toilets I was going to make vomiting, « he notes.
At the age of 14, Moore started the abuse of sedatives and hypnotics. That same year, she lost her virginity while on a trip to Mexico.
« I found a man I really liked. He was a good and a motorcycle champion, « he writes. However, the experience let her feel empty in her.
« Sex meant nothing. But if that were all they needed not to reject you, what the hell was easy, ”he notes.
Fighting with low self -esteem, seeking acceptance, the diary reveals a honest mour who toured the chaos of her life, and came out victorious.
Born I survived, Demi Moore in the handwritten pages of the calendar indicating Demi Private Memoirs on its cover confesses a lot.
The airport worker who emptied the Bruce Willis storage space, unexpectedly brought a portrait of her life that no one expected shortly before the Oscars.
The entries in the Moore Calendar were written in the mid -1980s.
On the pages, Moore writes about her addiction to cocaine, which is charged with her problematic first marriage to Music Moore.
« The night before my wedding, I got a bottle of champagne, I went to the house of this man with whom I made a movie at that time. He woke me up at 10:30 the next morning and I was supposed to be ready for the ceremony at one, « he writes.
« Subsequently, with hungover and guilty, these are my memories from my wedding day. The next three years were no better. I drank more and started to make coca, I had a lot of relationships that was just my attempt to get out of what I had done in my life. «
Moore's self -awareness is impressive as it reflects on the impact of its actions on the pages.
« I feel so disgusted with myself, not just because I used drugs. I used the people around me. I never realized how selfish and unfair I was, ”he writes.
The calendar also sheds light on her passionate but problematic romance with Emilio Estevez, with whom she came out from 1985 to 1986.
« Every time he was calling me, my heart was going to break. » However, their relationship was doomed as Demi Moore was a toxic dependent.
During a road trip with Estevez, Demi Moore describes an amnesian and fainting episode after alcohol and drug cocktails. « When I opened my eyes I was confused, I felt alone, I longed for Emilio to get me out of my misery. »
Despite his efforts, Moore admitted that she failed to escape her self -destructive behavior. « I'm really amazed that he didn't kill me on the spot, » he confessed.
Eventually, their relationship ended when a woman filed a $ 2 million paternity lawsuit against Esvez in 1986.
Then Demi Moore met Bruce Willis. The two became one of the most popular couples of the 90s.
They first met in 1987 at the premiere of Stakeout, a film starring her then fiancée, Emilio Estevez.
They fell in love at first sight, became inseparable, and just months later, they got married in Las Vegas on November 21, 1987.
They stayed together for 13 years and had three daughters, Rumer, Scout and Tallulah.
Despite their seemingly perfect marriage, Demi and Bruce announced their separation in 1998 and finalized their divorce in 2000.
After her divorce, Demi Moore married Aston Kutcher. After her divorce and Kutcher, Demi Moore became a headline on tabloid with new adventures.
The drugs, alcohol and trauma she was given were able to exterminate it after decades in front of the projector.
Today is what she had said in an interview after universal acceptance by the show industry.
« I feel like the palm tree I came out of the ashes. »
