Stirna World / Day

Recently with one single video – a song Fingers in a fist – Lilita Vidner, or Stirna, literally exploded in a short time, so much of the audience, after some other years. Millions of people were surprised – this emotionally charged song left anyone indifferent, and now almost everyone knows about him. Lilita’s harsh life story in an interview three years after her participation in a television show Through thorns to… You can read it on Jauns.lv, which shows that not all of this determination and how the energy flowing is not created – music is her psychotherapy.

When we talk about an appointment in the Vermann Garden, she awaits me while walking along the edge of the fountain, even at this point, capturing the details I saw, which may be useful for a new song. The path to music is very long.

When I was about sixteen years old, I lived in an emotionally unstable and aggressive family that was legally counted as my family – they were my adopters. In this disruptive environment, I felt very insecure and limited, and my only refuge was the first job to go to the train all the time. I didn’t have a touch phone, just a button -up, which was very shameful for the teenager, but I had a computer (I was studying in distance learning), which I was allowed to use only for training. When I went to work, I took it on a train where WiFi was and listened to music on the way. I didn’t like some songs because they were too slow – I wanted to change them, and started making remixes, changing speeds, tonality, making drums and bass. So every day, for forty minutes, on a train or at work and at home secretly on the washing machine in the corridor, I changed foreign songs, but so I learned how to work – what is the rhythm, what is tonality. I had a depression phase when I discovered at eighteen years that I could write songs about my things. It was easier to disclose myself through music, but I couldn’t sing, I couldn’t do anything, I couldn’t process the sound, but I learned it all. I was able to sit in bed, smoke a cigarette and write songs a day. At that time I didn’t work – I just wrote music and studied in nonstop. It was such a terrible pit period, and the first songs were very depressed, but gradually they began to become more conscious, learning and experimenting every day for three years. People ask: How many songs do you have? Over a thousand…

You all saved them?

Yes! But these are songs that the world will never see (shows the file folder). This is one profile and I have four. These are the songs I learned, experimented, put my soul inside. This is my psychotherapy. Songs I only write to myself. And there is the second direction – the songs I show in public, which I want to inspire people.

I am very nasty when music is sung for sex, money, drugs – there bitch, money, chain, etc.