I was hoping I could change something

« I didn’t plan to touch this topic anymore. I’m so tired of all this attention and ongoing show. I have survived everything a long time ago, and everything that is happening now seems to me very wrong. I understand that I can’t even be angry about the situation.

It is very nice when a person puts his feelings into music. I am madly happy that he manages to do it because the music is amazing and the words are very beautiful, the experiences are real. I just don’t like that I am in this situation as a « bad guy ».

I have been guarding my family all the time and always sincerely hoped that I can change something that I can change a person who is very wrong. In the last couple of years, I felt that I had done everything, giving myself all, drinking antidepressants, going to therapies. All the tactics have tried it to get the attention and love that I always wanted and felt worth it. And I failed. I’m just tired. There were many things, a lot of things had to be forgiven. I just realized that neither me nor a child was no longer healthy to be in such an environment. It cannot be. I have experienced all my experiences in my environment quietly, I do not make music. I went through and through the divorce, and I realize that another person is just passing through all those feelings now. And publicly. It hurts me when people do not know me as a bad guy without knowing the situation.

K. Meschino Instagram’s Story Stoop shot.

For me, these days are definitely difficult emotionally. It is impossible to ignore the fact that all of Lithuania is talking about you. Anyway, I feel that I can do what I want, I can meet who I want, I am a free woman and I can live further. I am not responsible for another person’s feelings and what he or she is in public, I am just sad and painful. It is painful to see that it is painful for another person. I just had a lot of longer and much longer, but I went through it and got out of it.

And getting out of a relationship where you are constantly becoming emotionally and feeling addictive is difficult enough, ”Meschino said with tears in his eyes.

Supporting formers was also expressed by content creator Agnė Kulitaitė. In her instagram, she shared a post that drew attention to the events of recent days.

« The last events of the day have once again showed how quickly society becomes a judge when a woman chooses herself. When she leaves a relationship where she was bad, when she clips the section and goes on when she doesn’t turn back but allows yourself to live. Not to hide, not cry after the Kaldra For six months, not justify, don’t wait for everyone to « confirm » that it is already possible. Just to live. To love. Rejoice. Be. And then the carnival begins – how fast is it? Is it real? Isn’t it played? Why does she look so strong? As if strength was suspicious. It is as if a woman should collapse into dust and wait for her to be allowed to recover.

But that’s what the problem is – we still want a woman to suffer. That the woman is silent. So that a woman is so strong for her pain that she is even afraid to run. Because when she releases, when she regains herself, when she appears with a smile, with peace, with a new person, the world feels uncomfortable. When a woman is liberated, she stops fitting to the roles written by others. No longer a victim, no longer guilty – just free. And it scares.

It’s not about how quickly you can fall in love again or how long you have to be alone to look « right ». It’s about whether you have the courage to no longer get yourself. Do you have the strength to go out, even when it’s still scary. And are you able to live further without guilt that you saved yourself.

And if the problem still seems to be a woman who chooses herself – the problem is really in a society where a woman still needs to justify that she lives, ”wrote A. Kulitaitė.

Photo by A. Kulitaitė Instagram and Personal Archive