Fate is a lousy traitor – Diepresse.com
Some experiences demand a high price. But I like to pay them for a lifetime.
There is this scene in the film « New Moon – bite at lunchtime ». Bella (Kristen Stewart) sits in her room with a broken heart and looks out of the window while the seasons pass her by. Edward (Robert Pattinson) left her so as not to put her in danger. The longing tears it. She has day and nightmares. Your thoughts revolve only around him.
Who doesn’t know it – this feeling of fainting? This desire for a person you don’t see, touch, smell and taste. Your absence completely fills your life. You wake up longingly, cheat your teeth longingly, walk longingly, drive in work longingly, come home longingly, eagerly eats dinner, watch a film longingly, read a book and sags a longingly. Your only consolation is the view of a reunion. You count the weeks, the days, the hours, the minutes. Still sleep five times. Sleep three more times. Sleep again.
And then it’s finally that far. I remember exactly that evening – before seeing again. The joy I felt, the excitement, the nervousness were stronger than any feeling before and after in my life. I went over luck. So I was neither before the first day of school nor before the first day of the holiday or before some other day. The drug that puts you in this state must first be invented. Rausch is only an auxiliary expression to describe this euphoria.
That was a while ago. That evening is still as present as the reunion the next morning – seeing from afar at the terminal to go about, the palpitations, the hug, the kiss.
What an overwhelming experience, which was expensive to buy fate. Nevertheless, it was worth it. Such feelings are not for nothing. I like to pay them for a lifetime. Hopefully I will be 100 so that I don’t guilty you anything, you lousy traitor.
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